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~~ My efficiency has really been going down been trying to not go out so much so that can do some work at home, but in the end i end up watching television, going online and sleeping! Acra dearie said something to me ydae that really got me thinking... that i am so different from when i was in NY, where i mugged like hell seems as if i am somehow much less motivated now.. which is a good and bad thing i guess... gd that there are more important things in my life now and bad that yeah my grades will slip... i think in AC i had qt a gd balance somehow but in uni jus becoming slacker and slacker dunno whys...=( last sem already like big fat stupid lesson to me, but this sem i m working harder but like not a lot a lot harder la! i dun wanna end up being so damn disappointed with myself like last term and having so many regrets dammit! Hai I gotta motivate myself! Fionaaa stardieZ! I think i should start praying more too.. think i m not really praying these days, and sometimes prayer also helps in motivating myself.. hai and it will make many other things better tooz... God grant me strength...give me a way out... and heal those who truly need you  Well here's some pics one wk agoz ahha..went to watch memoirs of a geisha with Sa, lloyd, becks, yt and hazel... miss dem so so much! esp Sa i dun have any classes with her this sem at all=( but it was FuN hahaha lloyd was so crappy during the movie ahhaha FOS..! then aft tt we went bac to sch to watch opening cere for a while and took a million and one fotos hahhaha.. reminds me of last sem where everyday in sch like photoshoot coz got becks ahhaha oh then there were really pretty fireworks ahhaha then becks was like how excited she's damn funny... but they were really pretty pretty... Haha anw the above pic looks like we're in France or smth ahahha   the girleys~~! theyre so pretty rite! ahahha SMU lighted balls!!! ahahah okioki so nice to take pics then can have all the memories!! i wanna take manymany more with the AC peeps and the church peeps and with everybODy too! because happiness can be so beautifully reflected in tt sweet smile of yours=) HAPPY CNY everybody!
I guess i shouldnt think so much crapZ life's a bitch.......
jus that i was super sleepi and woke up damn late la then was late for my 12 o clock MPW class.. by 20 min land aft class some more!! damn shitty break my punctuality thingy really badly today aiii but this will NOT happen again! anw luckily the prof din notice but it isnt nice too la ai... MPW was interesting aha but i think i need to participate, duno why jus so scared to speak in class crapS... oh then we were grouped randomly.. hai altho loulou and i sat far away we still din get into the same grp=( loulou's in the same grp as junkai lucki both of dem! and i dunno anyone in my grp... so sadz but sometimes i guess when u go out to work and all it's gonna be like that... so i guess what will be will be ai... then had LTB aft tt LTB is a super insane DUMB module to teach it's extremely boring too how exactly is anyone supposed to be taught lesson style on leadership and teambuilding?! Feel that only the experience, organising a cip event or smth like that can u benefit man anw today as usual the lesson part was really zZzz but the presentations were pretty gd Esp one group which used a banner to wrap themselves and unravel it aft that, pretty creative and spoil market too! but we did pretty wellS 2! spent 5 hrs on our paper marche heArt!! our hard work and all man!- with our theme love actually=) we're actually gonna plan a 2 day camp for these kids to show dem that we LOVee them aha check out our fuNkaYe hEart!
after LTB, waited for sa gal then we went for junkai's thingy: the sri lanka briefing.. It's actually going to sri lanka and helping the lil children there=) we went there it like ended aft 2 min or something la.. but well i think i m pretty interested in the sri lanka thing just that hopefully my mum will let.. die oredi the work's piling up like CRAZY and i dunno why i just cant get down to studying..
..... ahhaha sch's kinda like been trying to settle down aft sch started and all... and now it's like wk3 and so fast there's like so much work to be done oredi it's insane! anw sch's been nicee, so heartwarming seeing loulou, gerigal, debz, sasa and the rest of the AC bunch and spending time with them more!!=) louie's in 2 of my classes and shir's in one ahhaha happiehappie=) ahhaha and also yt's my perpetual classmate nw all the same classes!! ahhahah so nicee and of course got blur becks and hazel in 2 of my other classes too! but sa's not in any of my classes aii:( my classymates rock!:> anw my classes are all gerls again how weirdZ is tt hahha compared to AC the past 2 wks went surprisingly pretty smoothly feel happier these days=) God's grace perhaps.. administering to the pple arnd me=) it's been so enjoyable talking to my frenz and all and spending quality time with dem aha been paying attention more too, realised how slack i was last sem la aii this term's gonna be different i'm gonna work as hArD as i can and offer it up to God 'what will be will be' ahahhahaha and at the end of the day as long as i wont have regrets...=) oh VC activities has stopped and we're headed towards a new direction, a situation that is probably unknown to all of us... i guess i feel it's for the better that all grps are kinda merged and we can exp new things that i am pretty keen abt Yet we dunno what the future holds either? yepyep and there's jus this BIg sadness thingy too dat i noe i will miss YA! i mean there will kinda still have the YA! pplez but dunno perhaps things will be different? jus i guess smth taken away from you that you feel u wanna really hold on to ai oh wells and i prefer small grps BlAh!
HAPPIE NEW YEAR!!! ahaha well 2005 has been a blast! full of ups and downs but oh wells....here's a recap! well my memory's super duper bad and i cant really rem anything that happened b4 sch started haha only tt i lost erm -afew- jobs but heyy it was a gd exp and then aft tt of course there was the greatest conficamp i've ever had still missing it! still lurvee my grp and lurvee God and lurvee everyone who was there!!=) okioki shos aft tt sch started and well i mus sae this first sem has been not bad! there were really really funfun times and the friends like gerii debz loulou and the whole AC-SMU gang and of course my classymates- yt, beckz& sA! i've made r really nice lurvee them 2 ahahaha BUT i still miss AC so so much more the times at the void deck at the canoeing table where we'll laugh and crap during our breaks where we'll do pullups and everyone will think we're mad haha the times when i will just see everyone in AC and everyone will say hi coz it's sucha nice warm feeling the days when i will pon class and talk to pek& shiwei and they will always cheer me up coz they're so FOS! haha and the times when i would sit at the void deck with michie and shao and timo and so many many more pple and we would jus talk nonsense & it'll be damnnn farnie!! the times when we would sit at the bleaches and gaze at the field and the AC spirit will be 4ever present the AC events: Rugby. tennis, polo comps.. Orientation ahhaha i rem chua and denice they're super farnie!! & Funorama!!!! ahahha the times before As when our class was mugging tog until late late in the hub and our fantastic teachers would always give us consultation and a helping hand then the whole sch will be in the hub or the void deck choinging like mad too and jus everywhere u can ask anyone qns or help someone understand smth it would be sucha nicee feeling ahahhah oh mannn so nostalgic man i wasnt planning to blog abt AC ooops haha but it's nicee oki anw SMU is different it's like so fleeting i guess tt's what uni is like u hardly get to noe a person well either it's like everything goes by so fast and before u noe it it's over that goes for classes and seminars as well u gotta be so independent and no one will help u except yourself and of course God=) but i mus say my modules r act qt enjoyable so i wanna do well!! i think i'm clearer already abt this coming sem and i noe last sem i din set my priorities straight and all so everything jus came out as really really disappointing i mean i made nice frenz but somehow there's this emptiness?? weird isnt it aha this coming sem gonna be different gonna be gd im gonna be what i wanna be and who i wanna be! perhaps have some direction in sch like cca or smth and gonna mugg damn hard!! coz i m supposed to lurvee studying?! ahahaha ahhaha this is what i promised myself man since the malacca trip ahahha oki in church we've been having YA! i lurvee dubdub YA! theyre like family!! haha i rem some of the great sessions some of dem i did ahahhaha damn bhb but of course it was only bcoz it was in the presence of GOD hahaha oh and VC events like VC anniv, confimass& manymany more too!! ahaha we have had so many surprise bdaes too in 2005 they're jus so lovely=) and see the smiles light up on stace's, eweno's, fellie's, cyn's and manymany more ahahha oh and of course john's gala pretty pretty bdae dinner=) haha it was funnn coz we dressed up for him n he was sho happieZ haha oh then there was YA! camp and malacca which was a blast too haha my grp rox haha and then FINALLY and most beautifully there was XMAS!! xmas midnite mass was funkaye so happie happie during the service=) then aft tt we exchanged stuffs thankie pple for all the presents and the cards! it was a really joyful xmas really wanna be more giving in 2006! ahhaha well well that's 2005 for u i think it wasnt a very gd recap coz i cannot exactly rem many stuffs haha but for 2006 yupyup i wanna ... 1) Have more confidence in myself; to say stuff and do stuff that is me 2) Love the pple around me and be more giving=) 3) Be a better Catholic and up the spiritual level; serve better in church;be more prayerful! 4) Have great GPA!! ahahha 5) Have funnnn and do more stuff in church n sch n study at the same time! 6) Spread God's loveeee and be a living eg of God's loveee okioki tt said tatatata hopefully 2006 will be an even better yr!! i lurveee everybody!!
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